Life sucks,it's the truth,I mean,didn’t you think it would be better then this?

zivcu @ 2009-08-08T17:41:00

2009-08-08T21:45:33Z

Stance is sick,
the people are amazing.

I love my car,
and getting everywhere so conveniently.
day trips throughout? favourite.

Britney Spears in less than 2 weeks!
and then Dooley's wedding the night after, ugh.

i might be getting a blackberry.
oh dear.

zivcu @ 2008-12-02T22:10:00

2008-12-03T03:14:08Z

there are 5 people i know who work in carlingwood mall,
its pretty sweet.
considering its the "old people mall", thats alot of people!

i work 43 hrs next week. buh
holiday season sucks ass.

i love new clothes & accessories & boots
visa = bad!

rawr.

2007-03-03T19:01:38Z

Graduation is on my 18th birthday!
I am not very hapy about that!
(Sunday, June 24th)

zivcu @ 2007-01-22T17:10:00

2007-01-22T22:11:07Z

working tonight 6-10
and tomorrow 6-10.
store closes at 9.
working saturday 11-7.
store closes at 6.
work sucks, visitors rule.
and then sunday at my other job.
moneymoneymoney.
COME SEE ME
plz&thx.

ihatecoldddd.

2006-12-09T18:40:21Z

1. OMG i'm a terrible person! i was talking to boy Alex on msn, and whatever, then i had to go.. then I was out with Myr last night and he called at 9-930, and he asked what i was doing, and i told him i was out with my friend etc.. and so whatever. then girl Alex [his best friend] called me this morning at like 11 saying he got in a car accidnt last night! his car spun out/etc, he's in CHEO right now, all drugged up and hooked up to wires and ughhh i hate hospitals. she said his mom said he can't have visitors right now, but once he can she'll call her. and i told her i'd go with her sometime to see him. i feel bad.. i coouuld have said we'd meet him [but he and Myr don't know eachother, so it would have been super weird].. ugh.

2.

·Ziv· new phone says:

ew, its cold. winter coat

± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
COAT IS GOOD
·Ziv· new phone says:
blech
·Ziv· new phone says:
i hate coats
± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
YOU AND YOUR BROTHER COMPLAIN SO MUCH ABOUT THE COLD
·Ziv· new phone says:
haha
·Ziv· new phone says:
WE'RE DESERT BABIES
± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
INVEST IN A PARKA
± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
This is how the walk from mich's to damons went
·Ziv· new phone says:
INVEST IN SENDING ME BACK TO ISRAEL SO I CAN LIVE ON THE BEACH 8 MONTHS OF THE YEAR
± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
"It's fucking cold!"
"Shut up Tom! Your going to isreal in like 3 weeks!"
·Ziv· new phone says:
haha
± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
the whole way to damons
·Ziv· new phone says:
and its like a 10 minute walk
± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
then the trek from the brew house to mich's once again
± AngelFuck ± You've Got Me Bewildered. Be-Fucking-Wildered says:
oh man

I HATE WINTERRRR

friday- school, hungout with Myr, saw Connor & Tiffany, then went out for supper [at like 930], hahaha oh Sue [waitress, she spilled water on me, twice! normally, that would be really annoying.. but it was funny,], etc.
today- homeowrk. meeting Sabs at 3, hangin outtt, meeting Steve, Brendan, etc.. dunnooo
sunday- working 11-6, possibly meeting kody after?

happy birthday Kody, tomorrow.

thursday ngiht was Sam's semi-formal. good times. got lost going there, froze running from the car to the coral centre, y'know. pics to come, etc. Sam was taller than me, it was weird.

edit: i got a new phone. its not the right one though! so i'll either keep this, or return it and get the one i wanted.. we'll see.
so yea, you can call/text me again. do itttt<3

zivcu @ 2006-08-24T01:42:00

2006-08-24T05:43:14Z

FRIENDS ONLY.
comment to be added.

and thats just what life is about

2006-08-15T06:33:22Z

lots happened, and lots happening.
you don't know, so don't assume.

Warped was amazing, mad amount of fun. it was me, Tom, Yoni, Tiffany and Gina.. we left at 12 on saturday, got back at like 4 on monday. our hotel was gross.. the bathroom was tiny, the hot water didn't work half the time, and we had ants in our room. yes, we had bugs. 2 double beds and 5 people. montreal is amazing, loves it. we ran into Dani & Karen at Warped! <3 bands were amazing.. ugh, so good. i had a really good time.. ran into Corey, Steph and Mikey, hungout with them for awhile before we went to Anti-Flag... and Jeff twice. once i have energy i'll post some of our many pics.

stuffs been happening, i've cut down. i don't need this extra drama with other people. i'm avoiding certain people, and learning to let go. worrying about others and getting closer to a few.

Dan got me sick on friday afternoon/night. and i wokeup saturday with a cold/cough. and now i have no voice. talking on the phone is brutal, but funny. i skweak when i laugh

ps. "regardless of the way i got here, i am still here" -ben
Ben and i have been talking about experiances for almost 2 hours. we've defanitly bonded more.. i like our talks. he's grown up alot over the summer. we respect eachothers opinions more now that he gets it, he's experianced stuff. "i live for the moment"

edit: fucking hezbollah. it's a cease-fire. you didn't win!

zivcu @ 2006-08-07T16:03:00

2006-08-07T20:39:40Z

i've been super busy, and i like it. it keeps my mins off things. pretty much my daily routine is work, home, meet people, hangout for hours doing stuff, go to Joey and Andru's with them and Mike everynight, come home. the past 2 weeks, everynight it's been me&theboys, and sometimes Sam. its been good.

if you cared, you'd offer do something about it.. or check up.

I'm still mad-stressed. it's rediculous how i can't deal with this.. but i don't break down randomly anymore.

i figured you would have learned youre lesson, i was wrong. wakeup and realize you need to do something about this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ONKb9J2YeU UN ambulance transporting terrorists

Yoni comes tomorrowww!... i have to wakeup at 6am to pick him up though. whatever, i'm excited.
Warped on sundayyy

ps. montreal saturday-monday <3

zivcu @ 2006-08-03T14:07:00

2006-08-03T18:28:06Z

waayyyy too much has been happening lately. my stress level has actually gone through the roof. i keep randomly breaking down. in the car, at peoples houses, watching tv... it's rediculous.
so much has been happening and its shit. pretty much; war sucks, people suck, and not having money sucks.

this summer is getting worse and worse. next year is gonna suck.

i always told people to call me if they need to, but i wasn't expecting to get a call at 2:15am from a friend on acid, shrooms, and drunk who was standing at a gas station having a really bad trip and locked out of his house. it scared me. ....thank you sean.

Ido just told me Omri was called to go to Lebanon, he left today.

my heart/chest hurts..? this isn't normal.

in the end my dad didn't go to Israel.

Yoni and DohDoh are in New York right now, and Yoni's getting to Ottawa at 7fucking15 am on tuesday.. but after I pick him up we're just coming back here and sleeping... then meeting Tom after work.

tonight: 08/03 - Summer of Ska Tour w/ Catch 22, Voodoo Glow Skulls, The Flatliners, Socialight @ Mavericks - AA/19+/6:30pm/$15/$17 - EH, TM - NEW VENUE
how the fuck are they gonna fit this show into fucking mavericks?!? this is gonna suck.

zivcu @ 2006-08-01T02:25:00

2006-08-01T06:31:10Z

holy crap! fucking 51C tomorrow! and sunny... stupid humidity.
I refuse to go outside for more than 2 minutes at a time!

http://www.theweathernetwork.com/weather/cities/can/Pages/CAON0512.htm

driving to Joey's tonight at like 11 tonight was rediculous in the pouring rain. and then home at 1:30.. i could hardly see and had to go slow. ugh. i hate driving slow.

sometime this week i'll update.

zivcu @ 2006-07-27T03:58:00

2006-07-27T08:02:05Z

alot has been going on lately.
i've been more stressed this past 2 weeks than i have in a long time.

my dads going to Israel next week to be with my grandparents and sister.

my grandparents wouldnt leave their house (in haifa), but Adi finally got them to come to stay with her in Tel Aviv.. so now they're abit safer for the next few days.
there have been multiple bombings/rockets nearly everyday
i watch/listen/read the news all the time..
i'm super tense.. Mike asked me tonight when I was driving him home how my family was, and i pretty much just broke down. we sat parked outside his house for over an hour talking about stuff.

Ido got back from Madrid a few hours ago, he's safe at home. <3

zivcu @ 2006-07-20T01:10:00

2006-07-20T05:11:04Z

we broke up tonight....
:(!

but on a lighter note, Sam is home in 12 hours!

zivcu @ 2006-07-16T20:38:00

2006-07-17T01:03:41Z

Adi was on webcam before, I miss her. it made me think about all kinds of stuff/memories.
We were talking about how.. sad (?) it is that Yoni gets to see our mom before she does.
She's been gone for almost a year (she moved in september) :( and our parents wont get to see her til december.

Yoni moved in with Adi and Josh in Tel Aviv the other day... and took this

Ido is safely, in Spain. he wrote me to say he made it to/through the airport

*we're having problems, but in the past 3-4 weeks so much has happened with us, that we're gonna keep going. we don't want to break up.*
edit: things were alot better tonight <3

zivcu @ 2006-07-16T12:25:00

2006-07-16T16:33:09Z

there were 8-10 more rockets fired at Haifa in the past 12 hours.
I spoke to Ido last night, he's still leaving for his trip. but he couldn't take the train to the airport, he taxi'd...
a major train station was bombed a few hours ago, 8 killed more than 30 injured

my dad called my grandparents, they're ok.
he called Gila and Julian, and they're ok
then we heard about the navy ship being blown up and called Gadi because "they're a navy family"..
I've been emailing friends there, i've heard back from most and have spoken to them on msn.. they're ok.

we've had the news on 24/7 pretty much.

there have been sirens going off every few hours, and lots of people have been heading south..
new threats for Tel Aviv.
my parents spoke to Adi today, she's ok.

ihatethis
ihatenotknowing

edit: bombing in Ahuza (the neighbourhood/area of Haifa Ido lives in)

zivcu @ 2006-07-14T13:34:00

2006-07-14T17:39:56Z

they say theres a chance another bomb will fall tonight (their time, 7hrs ahead) in Haifa..
the news isn't saying much, more or less..
just be close to the "safest room" in youre house, aka bomb shelter.

and Ido's parents are leaving tomorrow (to Norway and Sweden)
and Ido leaves on sunday (he's going to Spain with friends)
Itai is in Rome, Ohad is in France,
and Omri is on leave from the army for 2 months, so he's at home.

I called Dave before, took me almost a week to get ahold of him! He's pretty good.. only spoke for a couple minutes though cuz he had to go.. he's gonna call me back today or tomorrow. <3

zivcu @ 2006-07-13T13:05:00

2006-07-13T17:56:42Z

Israel is at war, i'm scared.
there was a bombing in Haifa less than 20 mins ago
in Kiryat Motzkin, which is where Matan and Aviel live,
and near my grandparents.
Ido called Matan and Aviel, they're ok.
I can't get ahold of my grandparents.. there's no answer at the house.
WTF!

I hate this feeling.

edit: took me over an hour to get ahold of my grandparents, finally got through. all the lines were dead in the city. they're ok. Ido and his family are alright, friends are all ok.

zivcu @ 2006-07-12T01:47:00

2006-07-12T05:27:20Z

re: my post from the other day: nice to know ppl cared. (sarcasm 101)

the Unseen the saturday night was good.. had a good time. Went to Boombox/Jack/Lisa's after, drove Mel/Sean to Manotick, Sam slept over. (well, i slept, she.. tweaked) best wakeup ever "i just watched you sleep for 4 hours, and you don't snore. also, why is there nothing on tv at 6am?" (or something along those lines, i forget).. dropped Sam off, went to the unveiling of the tombstone/funeral. lunch at my uncle/aunts. worked from 3-5.. went out with Joey at night.

things lately are pretty good/getting better, slowly.
re: my post from the other day; things are getting sorted out.
i'm big on karma now.
Sam's gone (she left monday) til the 20th (thursday). i need friends?
she's gonna move in for a few days when she gets back,
my moms gone from the 20th-27th.
things with Joey are good,
he buys me clothes and makes us breakfast.

Dave left, i've been trying his cell since saturday.. no answer :( wtf @ him
Ido leaves for Spain in a couple days :(
Andru drew me a pic today, that kid has mad skillz!
♥2♥ with Nathan and Joey the otherday, it was good.
Ben is a funny/cute drunk.

movie crew=Myr/Mel/me. we rule.

<3 @ late night Timmies with Lindsay

I work Sundays, Tuesdays and Thursdays.. 2hr shifts, arrive anytime between 1:30-3:30, and be out anytime before 5:30... its pretty easy-going, but can be really boring. whatevs, $9.50/h

^{Sam, I miss you/I'm bored. Come home? Plz&thx.}

Noam and I are having one of our intense/long talks, loves it.

^{c'est tout}

zivcu @ 2006-07-09T19:17:00

2006-07-09T23:18:10Z

somebody call me.
i need reassuing.
and help.
and a hug.

zivcu @ 2006-07-09T19:03:00

2006-07-09T23:17:30Z

friday: good day.. he asked me, officially. we're cute. then Cass, Josh, Joey and I went to Josh's, saw Shaya on the bus (akward 101), we had all popped earlier and we all spazzy (?).. Cass, Joey and I went back downtown, abunch of people went to Lees, we hungout under the bride forever.. came home, drove Joey and Andru home.

saturday: woke up feeling terrible, took me almost 2 hours to get out of bed.. not in such a good mood, went dt and saw ppl, roof, mcdicks, etc.. Sam and I went to the Unseen at Babylon, good show. then went to Boombox/Jack/Lisa's with Sean and Mel, drove them to Mel's, Sam slept over.

sunday: wokeup at 9 (slept for about 4 hrs), dropped Sam off, went to the unveiling of the tombstone at the graveyard for my great grandmother. went ot the lunch thing at my uncles after, it kinda sucked/family sucks. came home, slept abit, Josh called looking for Joey, went to work til 5 (most boring shift everrr) (but i get paid friday, woohoo), dropped some of Tom's stuff off at Thornley/Mitch's, we went to DQ, drove him home. came home.
checked my email got 2 emails that scared the crap out of me, i called him crying, he couldn't reassure me/he couldn't even reassure himself. said he didn't want to do anything tonight.. he would call me later... he doesn't feel like socializing. i'm still crying, he said he sent the emails this morning.. they scare me, but he couldn't talk then. i. don't even know what to think. help. why. not him. fuck.

^{oh god}

zivcu @ 2006-07-05T21:47:00

2006-07-06T01:51:02Z

Dave leaves tomorrow :'(
I went to his house yesterday afternoon to say goodbye.
He promised to call once he's settled and we'd see eachother in December.
</3

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don’t feed me violins, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC's of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeh

Sleeping pills, no sleeping dogs lie never
Far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I’ve watched you slowly winding down for years
You can’t keep on like this
Now is as bad of time as any

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeh

It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a long time ago

It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a - long - time - ago

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeh

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh, don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeh

so, I haven't updated in forever.

2006-07-01T04:39:17Z

quickie update

last friday- wen to the end-of-year NCSY bbq, saw peeps, picked up Tom, went to Sabs' party, saw abunch of ppl, some some chill ppl, birthday, did stuff, Tom and I came back here at 4:30

saturday- went for late lunch with Tom and my mom, came home, went to Mitch/Thornley's for awhile, left Tom there, came home. went to Naomi's welcome back thing at her house, good times, saw lotsa ppl. picked up Sam at baseline, we came back to my place for awhile, went to Denney's.. ppl were 10+ mins late.. pretty much noone that said they'd come came. (aka all the boys) (it was me, sam, myr, mel, naomi, leah, leah and shira in the end), ppl were there for about half an hour.. then me, sam and shira hungout for awhile, then headed off.. sam slept over. we watched the breakfast club and talked. (i've been saying for years, i have bad luck on my birthday. Sam was astonished at some of the things)

sunday- i woke up with a fever or something, Myr picked Sam and I up, dropped sam at baseline, picked up naomi, went to grad. </3, it was sad, but ppl looked good. good talks with ppl after (reception). came home..

monday- went downtown with Sam and ppl, went to Ben's house.. came home, etc
tuesday- downtown.. random stuff
wednesday- went to bayshore with sam
thursday- downtown.. mel/sean/tiffany came later on

friday- i was supposed to work from 3:30-6, but the ppl were crazy and said noone told them i was supposed to come and they were going out, etc.. so i called Myr, we got coffee and went back to her place. went downtown at 7.. at 9 Joey and i left, visited Sam at work, bought baby food (just so we could go through her cash), did it.. got a pic of her in her snazzy bowtie and vest.. waited in the car til she finished her shift. went to timmies, drove joey and sam home..

tomorrow- meeting Shira and Lisa at some point in the evening, helping setup and whatnot.. going to Lisa's party (going-away thing for Dave/canada day)

ps. I have a jar of apples & strawberries baby food beside me, and don't know what to do with it.
pps. he makes me smile.
ppps. Dave leaves in a week

zivcu @ 2006-06-28T00:50:00

2006-06-28T04:50:30Z

Jen Teague's killer confessed to the cops monday night
turns out he lives in Barrhaven, 1 street away from mine
thats creepy. there are soo many times i've walked down that street, alone, at night, the last 10 months
i was driving home with my mom tonight around 10:30, and we passed this house on Orr (street), to go to our house, and there are cops.. i asked if she knew what it was, and she said that thats where he lived, with 2 other guys.
i feel pretty weirded out knowing that he was so close to me this entire time. it takes me less than 3 minutes to walk to his house from mine, and i have to go by his street to get to/from the bus stop
..i wish i could say i'm never going to walk around alone at night in barrhaven alone again.

zivcu @ 2006-06-24T13:23:00

2006-06-24T17:24:59Z

its my 17th birthday today

11ishpm
Denney's on Merivale
261-0683, cell it

whatever, just whatever.

2006-06-22T06:33:23Z

pikitup says:

try not to worry to much about that

pikitup says:

like the mighty mighty bosstones say - its more fun when you don't give a fuck

love hearttohearts/intense talks with Yoni(canadian), he's gonna call me while he's at camp and on his days off we're obvs hanging out.
good talks with Ben too the last little while, big fan of him lately. we're funny.

Dave moves in like 2 weeks :(... his birthday/going away party is soon. woohoo.

I'm really glad/excited Yoni (Israeli/pickitup) is coming, we've seriously bonded the last few months.

so, my birthday is turning out to be shitty, just like i thought. i have such bad luck with birthdays, i noticed it years ago. so far i'm picking Sam up, we're hanging out, picking Noam up later on.. thats it. i was thinking of making it into a bigger social thing, and just inviting whoever wants to come.. i was thinking going out for food or whatever, but since some ppl coming do the whole jew thing, it would only be later on, like 10:30/11.. right now i'm thinking Denney's cuz it's 24hrs (probs the one on merivale). when i know whats for sure going on, i'll post. whoever wants to come or whatever, is more than welcome to.

i'm so excited for Ido to call on saturday, we were talking today. haha he said to be ready.. i dunno what to expect. but he was funny, he has rehersals from 10-am10pm (they have a huge end-of-year performance on the 26th), so he said he'd call me w/e, and i said not to, and we'd talk on friday or sunday.. but i'm worth the lond distance bills. that sounds like the lamest thing, ever, but i loved it. we're lame/special like that.

Ido's army date is pushed back to Sunday, September 10th.

last night i picked up Alexa/Myr, went out for food and desert..

today i picked Alexa up at school, picked Sam up, left the car at baseline. went downtown, came back. went to walmart with Alexa, dyed her hair at my place, took her home. later on met Leah at baseline, picked up Myr, went to Starbucks with Leah/Myr/Alexa/Naomi/Mel/Daniel/Jackie/Yoni.. then went to a nargillah bar with the girls minus Jackie. drove Naomi/Alexa/Myr home.

so, so far the only 2 things i don't like about driving are the gas/$$ (i have to pay for it whenever i use the car), and having to drive people around. it's one thing if i offer/we're hanging out.. but don't ask me to aimlessly drive you around. if you need a ride, and it's important, then yes, but don't expect you to take you backwards and all over unless its actually for a decent reason.

zivcu @ 2006-06-20T17:34:00

2006-06-20T21:34:42Z

I got my G2!