Life sucks,it's the truth,I mean,didn’t you think it would be better then this?

Stance is sick,
the people are amazing.

I love my car,
and getting everywhere so conveniently.
day trips throughout? favourite.

Britney Spears in less than 2 weeks!
and then Dooley's wedding the night after, ugh.

i might be getting a blackberry.
oh dear.

there are 5 people i know who work in carlingwood mall,
its pretty sweet.
considering its the "old people mall", thats alot of people!


i work 43 hrs next week. buh
holiday season sucks ass.



i love new clothes & accessories & boots
visa = bad!

working tonight 6-10
and tomorrow 6-10.
store closes at 9. 
working saturday 11-7.
store closes at 6.
work sucks, visitors rule.
and  then sunday at my  other job.
moneymoneymoney.
COME SEE ME
plz&thx.

1. OMG i'm a terrible person! i was talking to boy Alex on msn, and whatever, then i had to go.. then I was out with Myr last night and he called at 9-930, and he asked what i was doing, and i told him i was out with my friend etc.. and so whatever. then girl Alex [his best friend] called me this morning at like 11 saying he got in a car accidnt last night! his car spun out/etc, he's in CHEO right now, all drugged up and hooked up to wires and ughhh i hate hospitals. she said his mom said he can't have visitors right now, but once he can she'll call her. and i told her i'd go with her sometime to see him. i feel bad.. i coouuld have said we'd meet him [but he and Myr don't know eachother, so it would have been super weird].. ugh.

2.


friday- school, hungout with Myr, saw Connor & Tiffany, then went out for supper [at like 930], hahaha oh Sue [waitress, she spilled water on me, twice! normally, that would be really annoying.. but it was funny,], etc.
today- homeowrk. meeting Sabs at 3, hangin outtt, meeting Steve, Brendan, etc.. dunnooo
sunday- working 11-6, possibly meeting kody after?

happy birthday Kody, tomorrow.


thursday ngiht was Sam's semi-formal. good times. got lost going there, froze running from the car to the coral centre, y'know. pics to come, etc. Sam was taller than me, it was weird.

edit: i got a new phone. its not the right one though! so i'll either keep this, or return it and get the one i wanted.. we'll see.
so yea, you can call/text me again. do itttt<3

i've been super busy, and i like it. it keeps my mins off things. pretty much my daily routine is work, home, meet people, hangout for hours doing stuff, go to Joey and Andru's with them and Mike everynight, come home. the past 2 weeks, everynight it's been me&theboys, and sometimes Sam. its been good.

if you cared, you'd offer do something about it.. or check up.

I'm still mad-stressed. it's rediculous how i can't deal with this.. but i don't break down randomly anymore.

i figured you would have learned youre lesson, i was wrong. wakeup and realize you need to do something about this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ONKb9J2YeU     UN ambulance transporting terrorists

Yoni comes tomorrowww!... i have to wakeup at 6am to pick him up though. whatever, i'm excited.
Warped on sundayyy

ps. montreal saturday-monday <3

waayyyy too much has been happening lately. my stress level has actually gone through the roof. i keep randomly breaking down. in the car, at peoples houses, watching tv... it's rediculous.
so much has been happening and its shit. pretty much; war sucks, people suck, and not having money sucks.

this summer is getting worse and worse. next year is gonna suck.

i always told people to call me if they need to, but i wasn't expecting to get a call at 2:15am from a friend on acid, shrooms, and drunk who was standing at a gas station having a really bad trip and locked out of his house. it scared me.    ....thank you sean.

Ido just told me Omri was called to go to Lebanon, he left today.

my heart/chest hurts..? this isn't normal.

in the end my dad didn't go to Israel.

Yoni and DohDoh are in New York right now, and Yoni's getting to Ottawa at 7fucking15 am on tuesday.. but after I pick him up we're just coming back here and sleeping... then meeting Tom after work.

tonight:  08/03 - Summer of Ska Tour w/ Catch 22, Voodoo Glow Skulls, The Flatliners, Socialight @ Mavericks - AA/19+/6:30pm/$15/$17 - EH, TM - NEW VENUE
how the fuck are they gonna fit this show into fucking mavericks?!? this is gonna suck.

holy  crap! fucking 51C tomorrow! and sunny... stupid humidity.
I refuse to go outside for more than 2 minutes at a time!

http://www.theweathernetwork.com/weather/cities/can/Pages/CAON0512.htm


driving to Joey's tonight at like 11 tonight was rediculous in the pouring rain. and then home at 1:30.. i could hardly see and had to go slow. ugh. i hate driving slow.


sometime this week i'll update.

alot has been going on lately. 
i've been more stressed this past 2 weeks than i have in a long time.

my dads going to Israel next week to be with my grandparents and sister.

my grandparents wouldnt leave their house (in haifa), but Adi finally got them to come to stay with her in Tel Aviv.. so now they're abit safer for the next few days.
there have been multiple bombings/rockets nearly everyday
i watch/listen/read the news all the time..
i'm super tense.. Mike asked me tonight when I was driving him home how my family was, and i pretty much just broke down. we sat parked outside his house for over an hour talking about stuff.

Ido got back from Madrid a few hours ago, he's safe at home. <3

we broke up tonight....
:(!




but on a lighter note, Sam is home in 12 hours!

Adi was on webcam before, I miss her. it made me think about all kinds of stuff/memories.
We were talking about how.. sad (?) it is that Yoni gets to see our mom before she does.
She's been gone for almost a year (she moved in september) :( and our parents wont get to see her til december.





Ido is safely, in Spain. he wrote me to say he made it to/through the airport


*we're having problems, but in the past 3-4 weeks so much has happened with us, that we're gonna keep going. we don't want to break up.*
edit: things were alot better tonight <3

there were 8-10 more rockets fired at Haifa in the past 12 hours.
I spoke to Ido last night, he's still leaving for his trip. but he couldn't take the train to the airport, he taxi'd...
a major train station was bombed a few hours ago, 8 killed more than 30 injured

my dad called my grandparents, they're ok.
he called Gila and Julian, and they're ok
then we heard about the navy ship being blown up and called Gadi because "they're a navy family"..
I've been emailing friends there, i've heard back from most and have spoken to them on msn.. they're ok.

we've had the news on 24/7 pretty much.

there have been sirens going off every few hours, and lots of people have been heading south..
new threats for Tel Aviv.
my parents spoke to Adi today, she's ok.


ihatethis
ihatenotknowing



edit: bombing in Ahuza (the neighbourhood/area of Haifa Ido lives in)

Israel is at war, i'm scared.
there was a bombing in Haifa less than 20 mins ago
in Kiryat Motzkin, which is where Matan and Aviel live,
and near my grandparents.
Ido called Matan and Aviel, they're ok.
I can't get ahold of my grandparents.. there's no answer at the house.
WTF!

I hate this feeling.


edit: took me over an hour to get ahold of my grandparents, finally got through. all the lines were dead in the city. they're ok. Ido and his family are alright, friends are all ok.

re: my post from the other day: nice to know ppl cared. (sarcasm 101)

the Unseen the saturday night was good.. had a good time. Went to Boombox/Jack/Lisa's after, drove Mel/Sean to Manotick, Sam slept over. (well, i slept, she.. tweaked) best wakeup ever "i just watched you sleep for 4 hours, and you don't snore. also, why is there nothing on tv at 6am?" (or something along those lines, i forget).. dropped Sam off, went to the unveiling of the tombstone/funeral. lunch at my uncle/aunts. worked from 3-5.. went out with Joey at night.


things lately are pretty good/getting better, slowly.
re: my post from the other day; things are getting sorted out.
i'm big on karma now.
Sam's gone (she left monday) til the 20th (thursday). i need friends?
she's gonna move in for a few days when she gets back,
my moms gone from the 20th-27th.
things with Joey are good,
he buys me clothes and makes us breakfast.

Dave left, i've been trying his cell since saturday.. no answer :( wtf @ him
Ido leaves for Spain in a couple days :(
Andru drew me a pic today, that kid has mad skillz!
♥2♥ with Nathan and Joey the otherday, it was good.
Ben is a funny/cute drunk.

movie crew=Myr/Mel/me. we rule.

<3 @ late night Timmies with Lindsay

I work Sundays, Tuesdays and Thursdays.. 2hr shifts, arrive anytime between 1:30-3:30, and be out anytime before 5:30... its pretty easy-going, but can be really boring. whatevs, $9.50/h

^{Sam, I miss you/I'm bored. Come home? Plz&thx.}

Noam and I are having one of our intense/long talks, loves it.


^{c'est tout}

somebody call me.
i need reassuing.
and help.
and a hug.

friday: good day.. he asked me, officially. we're cute. then Cass, Josh, Joey and I went to Josh's, saw Shaya on the bus (akward 101), we had all popped earlier and we all spazzy (?).. Cass, Joey and I went back downtown, abunch of people went to Lees, we hungout under the bride forever.. came home, drove Joey and Andru home.

saturday: woke up feeling terrible, took me almost 2 hours to get out of bed.. not in such a good mood, went dt and saw ppl, roof, mcdicks, etc.. Sam and I went to the Unseen at Babylon, good show. then went to Boombox/Jack/Lisa's with Sean and Mel, drove them to Mel's, Sam slept over.

sunday: wokeup at 9 (slept for about 4 hrs), dropped Sam off, went to the unveiling of the tombstone at the graveyard for my great grandmother. went ot the lunch thing at my uncles after, it kinda sucked/family sucks. came home, slept abit, Josh called looking for Joey, went to work til 5 (most boring shift everrr) (but i get paid friday, woohoo), dropped some of Tom's stuff off at Thornley/Mitch's, we went to DQ, drove him home. came home.
checked my email got 2 emails that scared the crap out of me, i called him crying, he couldn't reassure me/he couldn't even reassure himself. said he didn't want to do anything tonight.. he would call me later... he doesn't feel like socializing. i'm still crying, he said he sent the emails this morning.. they scare me, but he couldn't talk then. i. don't even know what to think. help. why. not him. fuck.

^{oh god}

Dave leaves tomorrow :'(
I went to his house yesterday afternoon to say goodbye.
He promised to call once he's settled and we'd see eachother in December.
</3